Hmmmm, where to start.

I was warned Ben would be a sponge and pick up on things more and more each day. I have decided, Ben may not be much of a talker. Oh, he loves to Jibber jabber, but when it comes to communicating with us, he seems he would much rather use sign language.
Words he signs: Please, milk, all done, thank you, Mom, Dad, waves bye bye, blows kisses now most the time instead of waving bye bye.

When,he wants his shoes on, he picks them up and hands them to me. He did that for the first time this past weekend. When he wants them off, well he unstraps and takes them off.

He is quite a helper. Still washing dishes. He hands his clothes to me to put them a way after I folded them, of course, I refold after he hands them to me.

He loves to help Dad vacuum the floors, he holds the chord as Jake moves from one room to then next. Often, he likes to turn the vaccuum off and on, just to keep Jake on his toes.


He also has become INFATUATED with books. He loves them. Each night he heads to his room to get out all of his books and flip through them page by page. I try to read to him one or two, but most the times he likes to read to himself as he jibber jabbers from page to page. His absolute favorite is of course......

Yes, he has "read" himself to sleep more than once now with this book. Thanks Jesse. This book was a birthday present from Sydney Muenks...his future wife. Haha. She got him an Astronaut one just like it, but he seems to enjoy this one more. Hmmmmmm, ironic?
I have also decided Benjamin, looks quite a bit like Dennis the Menace.

And his daredevil moves quite often remind me of Dennis the Menace. His favorite being standing up on any toy he can find.

He loves, loves, loves walks in his stroller. I say, You wanna go for a walk? and his hands start waving and he is practically shaking with excitement. And he screeches in laughter. Let's find your shoes, and he is off running.
So, over the weekend, we saw this info-mercial on "Babies can Read" Well, I decided we could try our own method of teaching Ben words, and made a bunch of Flash cards. I have only gone over them twice now with him, but he seems to be attentive to the matter. He seems to think it is a fun game, so we shall see.
He is Medical dr visits and prescription free for over a month now. He really likes the rice milk, and pretty much drinks it like water. He lOVES peas and grean beans. Now if we could just get him to eat more meats. I have found I should put that on his plate first and give him the vegetables as a dessert. Boy, isn't that going to be quite a story in the future when I am fighting Ben in three years to "EAT HIS PEAS!"
He is such a character, and there is so much more I am sure I have missed out, but he is a real joy. He STILL only has four teeth, but the constant slobbering, knawing of his hand, and a few restless nights, make me believe there are quite a few coming in.
Ben has helped his mother so much with our recent loss of our baby. He reminds me how truly blessed we are, and that God is always taking care of us. Again, his works may not always be my plans. I still feel a constant hole in my heart, but it will most likely be something I will feel for the rest of my life. It gives me great comfort to know Baby Bean never had to suffer though, and She(I have found myself referring to her as a girl) is up in heaven hanging out with the "BIG GUY" So, really what more could you ask for your child?
All is well, and Baby Girl Schwab is on her way in the next three weeks. Which also means a visit from Grandma and Grandpa Holee. So we are very excited!

Wild West Day and visiting family.

Check out the two little cowboys at Wild West Day!

Three more little cowboys, L to R, David, Matthew, and Ethan.

He constantly wanted to hold onto straw, one in each hand. Something about it, that and pens and pencils. Not really sure what that is all about.


First pony Ride. He held on all by himself. I was there for support just in case.

He was very focused the entire ride of the pony. Once or twice he looked at me to smile, and say, "Check me out MOm, I am so big." But that was it. He knew he needed to hold on.

Look at the camera! As I point and smile. I always find these pictures funny, cuz it never really works to get Ben to ACTUALLY LOOK at the camera.

Nothing like finishing the day off with an icecream cone. His eyes practically rolled back in his head.


Hanging out with Ava. They kind of look alike. Ava tried to give some lovins, but neither of them were up for sitting still too long.



Morning Walk with Grandma K.

B-man

Talkative Benjamin. He jabbers all day long. Not quite sure what he is saying but he sure does. Looks at me with the most serious face, and tells me and points. I just say, "oh ya, Is that right?"

He is so smart. He will tell us now how old he is and puts his one little index finger in the air, and sounds to us like , "un" My Mom says he is going to be like me and just start saying complete sentance's one day. His absolute favorite thing to do is push things around the house on the floor, whether it be the laundrey basket, a plastic tupperware container, a block, a book, his toy rocking cow, or his toy lion.

He has a curiosity trait that reminds me most of the Holee Men. For example Papa Doug and Jake. He often tries to take things apart, sit on things, or just look at things in the most curious way. He is drilling up ideas in his head, and by the look on his face I would like to jump in that little mind of his, and find out what he is thinking.

He has become quite the balancing act as he climbs on top of his lion, and stands with arms spread out. This is an accident waiting to happen.


He loves playing at the park, and is infatuated with slides.



I just thought this was a good shot of him in the evening sun. He is such a handsome little guy.


Ben is an absolute joy. He plays by himself all the time now, and I am amazed. His true best friend is Mugsy. He gives Mugsy as many open mouth kisses as Mugsy gives to him.

I want to say quickly I appreciate everyone's thoughts and prayers. I can really tell that God is working through so many of my friends and family in being so supportive. I am amazed sometimes of the love that people show for others, and it makes me want to be a better person. I would also like to say how much Jake and I have grown from a very sad experience in our lives. He has been somewhat of a superhero to me. When he hugs and holds me in my sad times, it's like he wants to absorb all the pain I have felt, and take it away from me. My brother recently asked me if I could have any superpower in the world, and I decided that is what it would be. I would be able to take away any physical or emotional pain that a loved one feels. How handy would that have been when Benjamin burnt his hand on the oven door.

So tell me, if you could have any super power, what would it be?

My Awesome brother Jason and his wife, Crystal have been incredible also. So props to you guys. And one more props to Mr. Benjamin. He has given to us so much in such a hard time. He will probably never realize, but I only hope that one day he realizes even as a child how much he has allowed Jake and I to grow as adults.

Happy Fall Weather to everyone!

A little Soul

I asked my friend who had also miscarried her baby- if she ever feels as if she now has a little soul in heaven watching over her, cuz that is kind of what I feel and it is comforting.

She responded with, "every day" like when she sees a butterfly or her daughter, Ava points to something and there is nothing there.

My watergates open when I read her response, but it is one more reminder that God is working really hard through my family and friends to take care of me.

So thank you everyone for all your support. Some of you may not know how much you help me.