Crazy

You know sometimes I still have to remind myself that I am pregnant. It's quite crazy, if I must say. So, I was just wondering if I felt this same way with Ben,and sure enough, on my old journal:

The belly
Date: 01/31/2007
I have decided that it is one of the oddest thing to see my belly grow. It seems like two weeks ago, I couldn't tell I was pregnant, and now all of a sudden I have a nice little "beer gut":) It is hard to connect the idea that there is a growing baby in there. I felt my first flutter at about 13 weeks and that same week I felt a definite kick while laying on my stomach one night. Since that, I haven't felt anything. Sometimes it still doesn't feel real. I think every morning I wake up reminding myself, "Oh yeah, you are pregnant, Maria." I know it is going to become more real as nugget starts to play around more in there. I know it will also make a difference when we know whether we got a boy or girl Holee.
When I really sit and daydream about it, I get into it. Imagining Jake as a Dad, and Me as a Mom. HAAA! Then the worrying kicks in. Will we be good parents? Will our child be healthy? What will we name him/her? ..... Yeah, I need to remind myself to slow down. For now, I want to enjoy the time Jake and I have before kids come. AS THEY SAY, IT ALL CHANGES!!! I believe 'them'. I have a hard enough time getting myself out the door in the morning.
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Something that I have found to be very cool is that each night when I lay flat on my back in bed and put my hand over my belly. I rest it just an inch or so above my c-section scar, and I can literally feel Baby G curled in a ball in there. If I cup my hand, it about covers her. I don't have to press hard or anything, it's just that I can tell it is her. I don't remember every being able to do that with Ben. I guess I know more what I am looking for. And she really is about the size of a lemon, but growing bigger. It gets me so excited about having this second one. And Boy or Girl, I just can't wait. What is he/she going to look like. Will they look exactly like their father again, or will be more like me. And I pray each time that whatever sex Baby G is healthy as a horse.